Every Wednesday, I feel less and less like this is where I'm suppose to be. I don't understand art. Every critique in this class becomes a discussion about the "content" of the work. Who cares? I'm looking at the work and deciding how I feel about THAT, not what the artist is trying to say. Arguments go on in this class and I just want to yell out "who the fuck cares?"
Why can't the work just be out the work, why does it have to some other meaning? The girl presenting right now is being torn apart because she is trying to saying that here work is formal, and the class doesn't seem to care. They want her to change her entire idea just to please them. I hate this.
Cheryl just said that she thinks the viewer isn't going to get it... I get it, why can't she? Why can't everyone else in this class? AHHH!!!
I get so angry in this class.
"That's why it's so confusing to us."
What? I really want to walk out right now. This is how it is every week and it's mainly with the photography majors... not the fine artists. I'm starting to think that Cheryl is not the best person to be teaching this class. More and more I am seeing the difference between photography and art. The "fine artists" in the class act as though they are so much smarter. Sometimes they act like they are talking down to the photographers; i.e. me. I get it, you don't have to act like I'm stupid, I just don't think you are right.
God, I'm pissed...
Wednesday, March 08, 2006
All the Time, Even Right Now
Spring break is right around the corner, and I'm slowly realizing that I am going to be the only person left in this town. Almost everyone I know is going somewhere. Business trips, mission trips, drunken festivals, and me; I'm going to be sitting around, doing absolutely nothing...
That's not true, I will probably work on catching up on work. Maybe throw together a project or two to thicken my portfolio a little more before the review in a couple of weeks. I'm not too worried about it, but there is a little doubt. I don't know if I am grad school material. I think I have the potential, and I think that's what my professors are going to see. I need to work on explaining myself and my work better.
So something happened the other day which was really strange. I was checking my email the other day before leaving for class, and I got an email from an old friend. I haven't seen or spoken to this girl in about six years, and out of the blue, this. It's been a strange series of events.
There is more to this post, probably, I don't feel like writing a whole lot more right now. Maybe later.
That's not true, I will probably work on catching up on work. Maybe throw together a project or two to thicken my portfolio a little more before the review in a couple of weeks. I'm not too worried about it, but there is a little doubt. I don't know if I am grad school material. I think I have the potential, and I think that's what my professors are going to see. I need to work on explaining myself and my work better.
So something happened the other day which was really strange. I was checking my email the other day before leaving for class, and I got an email from an old friend. I haven't seen or spoken to this girl in about six years, and out of the blue, this. It's been a strange series of events.
There is more to this post, probably, I don't feel like writing a whole lot more right now. Maybe later.
Tuesday, March 07, 2006
Sunday, March 05, 2006
Baby, It's Cold Outside
Last night was a good night.
I am in a better mood then I have been in a long time. I think the combination of little stress and spending some time with old friends has lifted my spirits. It's good to relax and not worry so much about stuff. Plus I ate some GOOOOOD food. You can't go wrong with that.
Today's workload requires exercising and grading; not much else. I could probably stand to work on my video a little more, but I kind of want to wait until my new computer gets here, just to make things easier on myself. It shipped on Friday, and depending on how shitty Fed-Ex is (because they always are, just different levels of shittyness) it could be here in the next couple of days. w00t!
... okay, nevermind. I checked the tracking status, and it looks like Thursday will be the magic date. I hate Fed-Ex. They are the slowest fucking bitches in the world. Really.
It was good to see Becca again, and to still be able to hang out the way we used to. All in all the night was great, except for the part where she spilled grape juice all over my bed and wall. Nice. We talked of old times, what's been happening with us, where we are moving in life, etc. She gave me some advice and I feel better about some things. She's a pretty smart girl.
Shit. It's snowing. Fuck.
I hate snow. At least it's suppose to be near 70 this week. Ok, it's time to get this day started.
Oh yeah, one other thing... I got some sleep last night (except when I had a dream about spiders, ouch).
I am in a better mood then I have been in a long time. I think the combination of little stress and spending some time with old friends has lifted my spirits. It's good to relax and not worry so much about stuff. Plus I ate some GOOOOOD food. You can't go wrong with that.
Today's workload requires exercising and grading; not much else. I could probably stand to work on my video a little more, but I kind of want to wait until my new computer gets here, just to make things easier on myself. It shipped on Friday, and depending on how shitty Fed-Ex is (because they always are, just different levels of shittyness) it could be here in the next couple of days. w00t!
... okay, nevermind. I checked the tracking status, and it looks like Thursday will be the magic date. I hate Fed-Ex. They are the slowest fucking bitches in the world. Really.
It was good to see Becca again, and to still be able to hang out the way we used to. All in all the night was great, except for the part where she spilled grape juice all over my bed and wall. Nice. We talked of old times, what's been happening with us, where we are moving in life, etc. She gave me some advice and I feel better about some things. She's a pretty smart girl.
Shit. It's snowing. Fuck.
I hate snow. At least it's suppose to be near 70 this week. Ok, it's time to get this day started.
Oh yeah, one other thing... I got some sleep last night (except when I had a dream about spiders, ouch).
Saturday, March 04, 2006
Friday, March 03, 2006
Better Left Unsaid
Spring break is just one week away. Thank god. There has been so much going on and it's going to be a nice chance to distance myself from some of the stress in my life. Sometimes I want to say things that are probably better left unsaid. I'm afraid if I really said some of stuff that I've been thinking, that might be the last time I speak to some people.
Emotions have been festering and building up. I'm trying to find ways of releasing this pent-up energy, but it's hard. Exercising isn't doing much and I've been trying meditate (honestly); not working either. I thought maybe getting out and taking some pictures this weekend might be good therapy, but I don't know if that's going to happen.
I bought a new computer today, online that is. It should be here in a week or so and it's pretty sweet. I'd go into all the technical stuff, but I'm not sure that would mean much (especially since I don't even know what all of it means). Let's just say it's going to rock, thanks to Davin (at least it better rock, or there will be hell to pay).
I'm laying here, writing this post, and I'm feeling better then I have. Maybe it's because the weekend is here and for once I'm not loaded with work. There are still things I wish were different, but I guess I should give up... there are reasons. I don't want to give up.
Emotions have been festering and building up. I'm trying to find ways of releasing this pent-up energy, but it's hard. Exercising isn't doing much and I've been trying meditate (honestly); not working either. I thought maybe getting out and taking some pictures this weekend might be good therapy, but I don't know if that's going to happen.
I bought a new computer today, online that is. It should be here in a week or so and it's pretty sweet. I'd go into all the technical stuff, but I'm not sure that would mean much (especially since I don't even know what all of it means). Let's just say it's going to rock, thanks to Davin (at least it better rock, or there will be hell to pay).
I'm laying here, writing this post, and I'm feeling better then I have. Maybe it's because the weekend is here and for once I'm not loaded with work. There are still things I wish were different, but I guess I should give up... there are reasons. I don't want to give up.
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