The Weather Is Nice

I'm feeling slightly better.

I have been blogging for exactly one year today. How bout that? I've kept it up. This is my 274th post. I've had over 2,500 hits.

The reason I write in this blog is that it's a good release and helps me get things out of my head and off my shoulders. Plus, it's great to do when you're bored.

Sure, I complain a lot, but doesn't everybody. Unless you are a news blog, it's all just bitching.

Btw, "House" is on. Not the TV show about the doctor, but the really bad horror movie from 1986. I forgot how much this thing sucked. William Katt is a bad actor, but George Wendt is the bomb.

Happy Endings...?

The weeks is over. The weekend is here. It's hot. I don't know what to do.

It's going to be a weekend of working and being alone.

Doctor couldn't find anything wrong with my blood, but I still have the stress-echo in two weeks, so maybe that will show something.

My head hurts. My chest hurts.

It shouldn't be this way...

That's It

I'm on empty. There is nothing else left.

:o(

That Motivation...

It's gone. With the recent events that have taken place, I now have to turn my motivation elsewhere. I'm going to start looking at some other schools, probably look for a job. Maybe I'll go back as an undergrad and finish my second degree. I don't know, there are options, I just have to figure out which one works best for me.

I still want to teach, which means I need my MFA. I need to look into some other programs. But I also think I want to work in modeling (not me of course), but that is a hard industry to get into.

But, this is still all unconfirmed. My review is on the 10th and then they aren't going to say who stays and who goes until at the end of the semester. This next month is going to be tough because I feel that if I don't get accepted, that I'm wasting this time. But I have to continue as if I'm going to pass. I can't get down about this and I have to find a way to play this out.

I Found the Cure To Growing Older

And you're the only place that feels like... home.

I'm in a much better mood today. I think it's going to be a good day, a good couple of days in fact. I feel motivated and ready do to some work. Strange, isn't it? I wonder what could make my feel so much better.

I went through a stack of papers, pulled out all of the pertinent information (i.e. things I've been meaning to take care of) and I'm going to get all this stuff done.

I don't really have class this week, just a lot of meetings. This will be a good week for me to regroup, get ready, and prepare for my review, two weeks from today. I actually have a kind of informal review tomorrow with the photo department, the ones who are actually going to decide whether or not I continue. It's going to be interesting. I do have a lot of meetings this week... damn.

Oh well, it's still better then sitting in class. At least in meetings, I can talk to people one on one. I'm much more comfortable in an interpersonal setting like that.

Here's to getting my act together!

A New Post

There's a feeling, like I need to write and get something out, but the words aren't coming. The only thing I keep thinking about is that tomorrow is Monday... already.

I'm not ready for it to be the start of the week.

9/11

If you have and hour and a half, then you NEED to see this.

Loose Change - 2nd Edition

The events of September 11th were staged by our government in order gain power, money, and control over us. Never thought about it that way, but after watching this, a lot of it makes sense. I knew there was a reason I hated George Bush.