Costochondritis

So that's what's wrong with me...

My ribs are messed up, which is messing with my breathing, which is messing with my bronchitis. I went to PUSH today, and they've got me doing a couple of different things. I'm using an inhaler and taking both Zyrtec and ibuprofen. The doctor thinks it should take about 2-3 weeks before my chest starts feeling better, but I got the impression that I am going to have to continue with the inhaler and Zyrtec indefinitely.

Along with that, no physical exercise. I'm not suppose to do any strenuous work because it might re-aggravate whatever caused this in the first place (it's between working on my installation and a viral infection).

So far, I'm not feeling any better. It's still hard to breathe and the inhaler is giving me a headache. I have to go back in two weeks for a checkup and hopefully it will be gone by then.

I don't know what else to say...

UPDATE: I guess this means no personal trainer for about a month.

Wasn't There A Post Before This?

I think a post that I wrote is missing. I'm pretty sure I wrote a small post yesterday, but it's gone now. Maybe I didn't save it or perhaps it was a dream. If anyone knows of this mysterious missing post, let me know.

On to other news...

Actually, there isn't much to say. I went to the Merce Cunningham performance last night. It was alright I guess. I started having some back pain right before it started, and I was in pain the whole time, so I wasn't really getting into it.

I came home and couldn't sleep. Too much pain, too much on my mind.

I'm suppose to watch the installation gallery tonight. That is probably not going to be too interesting because I don't think too many people are going to come, but I could be wrong.

I'm in office hours right now. I don't even know why we have to do this because no one ever shows up. It's really a waste of time. I'm thinking about not scheduling hours anymore and just telling my students to set up individuals appointments if they need to see me, that way I'm still accessible, but at the same time I don't have to be here.

This is where I would be typing more if I knew what I wanted to say, but I'm still trying to figure out what's going on and how I am feeling about certain things. I've been one to always go with my gut feeling and try not to think rationally about things. There is always a moral dilemma when thinking rationally. It's not that I don't have morals, but sometimes morals get in the way of doing what feels right.

Dammit...

People Are Outside Screaming

And I'm inside watching football.

It's going to be a long night. I haven't been sleeping well the last couple of nights. I hate that. At least I get a chance to sleep in a little bit tomorrow, although I'll probably be up around 7 or 8, but I doubt I'll sleep well tonight either.

I went in and spoke with someone at the Corec about getting a personal trainer, and I'm pretty sure I'm going to do it. It costs about $200 for a 9 week program. While I technically have the money, I would like to save a little more before I go ahead and start the program, especially since Christmas is not far away.

I was thinking that I may just wait until next semester to start, but then I'm afraid everyone will come back from the holidays, thinking they need to loose weight, and I really don't want to deal with tons of people being at the Corec. So, I don't know, we'll see how much money I have left after I get my bills paid.

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My chest hurts...

It's hard to breathe...

I don't like this...

The Luckiest

Damn you Ben Folds...

Questions With No Answers

I know what I want to write, but I don't know if I should. The title really says it all. I'm at a loss right now.

I want to improve myself. I need to stop drinking. I need to start eating better and exercising. I need to... um... stop doing some other things. I need to start budgeting my money better. I need to start working harder on both my school work and my teaching.

I need a change in my lifestyle.

Why am I saying all this? Well, to quote my friend Earl, "It's Karma. Do good things and good things will happen to you."

I feel that if I want to get the things out of life that I want, I need to start living a better life. That's not to say that I'm not a good person, but I really just want to start living a "healthier" life.

Maybe if I do that, I might just get some answers that I'm looking for...

Eh, I Don't Know, Something Happy-Like

The installation is over!

It's all done, and it seemed like people enjoyed my piece. Awesome!

There was a good turnout, and I thought everything came together pretty well. I say we did a good job. Hooray for us!

As a side note... Who the hell knocks on someone's door at 3:30 in the morning? I'm lying in bed, all nice and cozy like, when I hear a knock at the door. I get up to answer it, but since I have no peep-hole, I have to ask who is there. They don't answer. I ask again, and then I hear them bolt off down the stairs and out the door. Don't know who it was...

That is annoying and pisses me off a little.

Only Time Will Tell

Overload...

Yeah, I know, I've said that before.

The installation opens tonight at 6:00 pm. I went to the space yesterday to finish setting up my piece when, of course, something went wrong. The projector I was using broke and wouldn't turn on. I had to go swap it out for another one this morning. This projector is HUGE and weighs a lot, so it sucks carrying this thing to campus and back.

When I got back to the space with the new projector, I set everything up, and then the DVD player wouldn't work. I had to run home, grab mine, and use it. That sucks. But everything is set up now and I am done (except I still need to hang my artist statement).

This hasn't been a good week. I am hoping now that since this class is done, things are going to get better. I can rest and not worry so much.

I don't feel like writing this, but I wanted to update. Even though it's done, it's not over until after the opening tonight.

I just want this day to end...