Motivation

I have none of it.

I cannot motivate myself to get up and work right now. I have a whole list of things that I need to do, and all I WANT to do is sit around all day. I need to get up and get out. Training, grading, editing, filming, writing, and reading. I need to buy groceries and pay my bills. I need to finish cleaning and probably do laundry. I need to go to the bank. So much stuff and I just don't want to...

Grrr...

I'm Sorry

That last post was really negative. From now on, I'm going to be more positive and finding at least one good thing that happens everyday. So going through the week again;

• Monday: I can think of one thing...
• Tuesday: Saw Mom, saw an apartment
  
• Wednesday: Finished my 106 meeting early
• Thursday: A couple of the students that I don't like didn't come to class, it's sunny

That's a good start, right?

TGIT - Thank God It's Thursday

I know, I'm a dick. My week ends on Thursday and it's so good. Everyone hates me...

So this has been an interesting week;

• Monday sucked.
• Tuesday was Mom's birthday. We went out for Chinese and then I got sick. Fun times. I also went and looked at potentially my new apartment for next July. The place is much bigger then my place now and cheaper. I could get an even larger place for the same price I am paying now, but I think the smaller of the two still has more then enough space then I would need.
  
  
  
• Wednesday I had to defend my work yet again in class. I don't like artists. They think they know everything and that they are always right. You can't tell an artist something without them turning your words around. I'm kind of getting sick of always being on the defensive. I know I'm not great at explaining my work, but when I say something, I'm pretty sure I know what I'm and I don't like it when people try and correct me. Dammit. I was in a bad mood last night.
• Thursday has been "blah" thus far. My students continue to come to class unprepared, which means I have to find busy work for them. Not a fun way to teach. At least I have some good students. I don't know what's going to happen the rest of the night...
  

Friday is probably going to be "blah" as well, seeing as how I don't have much to do. This weekend is going to be shitty though... again. Fuck.

I have tons of grading to do, more filming and recording, writing and reading, just a whole lot of work. I'm not looking forward to this weekend.

My apartment is a mess and I need to clean, but I am too lazy to do it now. I may end up taking a nap instead. And what is that smell? It smells like bubble gum, but I don't have any gum and there's nothing on the bottom of my shoes.

This Is Going To Be A Bad Weekend

So this weekend is going to suck. I know it will...

I've got an entire vidcast to edit and put together, a photography project, and a paper to write, all before Monday. I didn't get any work done yesterday (at least not school work), and I know that if I don't get working today, I won't get anything done either. I also have to find time to grade projects this weekend as well. I already told my students that might not happen, but maybe I can find time.

I was suppose to be in the SPURSE workshop this weekend, but I just didn't have the time. It's alright though, I wasn't HUGELY interested in doing it anyway. I thought it could be fun, but there is another workshop later in the semester and I should be able to participate in that one.

Let's hope this weekend isn't so bad by the end...

Halo Games

As of right now, I have played 1053 rounds of Halo 2 on Xbox Live.

I have no life...

I'm Rick James Bitch

Isn't that the most over used phrase ever?

I need to stop talking about "art" because ever time I do, I end up sounding like a fool. Tonight in the photo class I was talking about how making artwork specifically to sell it doesn't make you a "serious artist." Then someone brought up the idea of wedding photography and how it's the same thing as selling artwork. I call bullshit. I take wedding photos as a service that I am selling, it's not like I just show up at random weddings and take pictures. I have nothing against a painter being asked to paint something for a job, but when they start only making their "artwork" just to sell it an make money, the idea of art looses all meaning.

I always know what I mean, I don't always articulate it the best way. I will make a good point and then to try and back it up, I end up saying something that sounds contradictory, which then leads to people thinking I don't know what I'm talking about. It's a pain in the ass; I need to work on my speaking skills...

By Far

Today has been the toughest day of my fitness training yet. I actually could not move when I was done. I don't know how I made it home. My arms are still very unable to move right now. When I got back, I laid down and fell asleep for two hours. My bed smells now because of the sweat on it. Dammit.

After I took my shower, I did feel a lot better. The hottest water I could get coming out of my shower really helped relax my muscles and I can move a lot better now. I'm not really "in pain" but everything feels really tight. I don't know that I could do any stretches right now without tearing something. This is 5 sessions down, 11 more to go.

I will post more later, but for now I need to eat...